I love music, all genres, and songs are always running through my head. I recently heard Placebo's cover of the Kate Bush original. Love Kate, I remember being a kid and seeing one of her videos and being blown away by her; she was so dramatic. And her videos were so creative - little four minute movies.
I've been sticking to my running program and some days are really tough. I have to talk myself through each minute and my legs feel like cinder blocks, other days I feel like I'm flying. Mentally I know my body can do it, it's just convincing my head to stick with it. As with the band so much of the work is mental - is it hunger? boredom? stress? When I'm running and I start thinking I need to stop, that I can't possibly run another minute I mentally evaluate how each part of my body feels. 99% of the time I know that my feet can keep going and I just have to turn off the chatter in my head. Sometimes it all begins even before I even take that first step. Off I go for this morning's run.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
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I soo0o know what you mean. Its like there is a toddler in my head sometimes when I am running and I have to negotiate with her. I say Ok you can make it to 5 mins just do 5 mins and then we will see where we are then or I say you are already half way done, if you did the first half you can definately do the second. So weird how we have to tell ourselves we can do something when that half should just know from the other half right??
ReplyDeleteI love that Placebo cover too -- and the original, of course! I'm just catching up on your blog and really liked the thoughts you posted at 4 months post-op. One of my very favorite things about getting banded was being able to let go of the negative self-talk about my weight and appearance. I used to do that every single day, multiple times, and now I don't do it at all. It's a great feeling.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on hitting the 50+ pound milestone! That is so major. :)
@Beth, it's funny how we have to convince ourselves to do something that we know we can.
ReplyDelete@Catherine, so glad you stopped by! You continue to a source of inspiration to me.