And the beat goes on

It's been a crazy week work wise and I've been in a bit of a funk. I also seem be at odds with the scale. After hitting a new low it's bounced around over the last couple of weeks, some days it's down and others up. I know that I'll get through it, but it can be tough. Now that I've finished the Couch to 5K program I've set my sights on running 10K. I'm also seriously thinking about getting a gym membership. I like running and I have a few workout DVDs that I use, but I need to mix things up and start doing some weight training. I hesitate though as I have many memberships that went by the wayside after a month or two.

I didn't get myself a reward when I hit the 50 pound mark so I've decided that when I reach my next big goal of 75 down I'm going to get myself something in a little blue box. A tangible momento to celebrate how far I've come when the scale and I are on the outs.

Be running up that road, be running up that hill...

I love music, all genres, and songs are always running through my head. I recently heard Placebo's cover of the Kate Bush original. Love Kate, I remember being a kid and seeing one of her videos and being blown away by her; she was so dramatic. And her videos were so creative - little four minute movies.

I've been sticking to my running program and some days are really tough. I have to talk myself through each minute and my legs feel like cinder blocks, other days I feel like I'm flying. Mentally I know my body can do it, it's just convincing my head to stick with it. As with the band so much of the work is mental - is it hunger? boredom? stress? When I'm running and I start thinking I need to stop, that  I can't possibly run another minute I mentally evaluate how each part of my body feels. 99% of the time I know that my feet can keep going and I just have to turn off the chatter in my head. Sometimes it all begins even before I even take that first step.  Off I go for this morning's run.

Hair, Hair, everywhere

I foolishly thought that I would escape the hair loss often associated with WLS. It started a few weeks ago around the 4 month post surgery mark and since then I've been losing lots. I'm worried each time I wash, comb or brush my hair and I just want it to stop. I've been diligent about taking a chewable multi-vitamin along with B-12 daily since surgery. In the last couple of weeks I've also added Biotin to the mix in hope that it will aid in slowing or stalling the hair loss. I think I've been consuming enough protein but I'll pay more attention to how many grams I'm eating in a day. I've also heard that Nioxin is supposed to help, at this point I'll try anything. I'll pick some up this weekend and report back in a few weeks.

I got a small fill a couple of days ago, my fourth. I'm hoping that it gets me back to the spot where I'm not thinking about food between meals and a cup to a cup and a half keeps me satisfied.

Still working on regaining my focus

Last week was the first that people started commenting on how much weight I've lost. For a while there I thought isn't anyone noticing? Can't somebody say something? Well it started with my parents' neighbour,  and since then everyone seems to be noticing. I like the compliments, they don't make me uncomfortable but I've also found that I seem to have taken all the praise as license to eat and eat far more than I should.

I have a fill booked for next Tuesday and I've been pushing myself to finish the final week of couch to 5K. There's no way in heck I can run 5K in 30 mins at this point but I can run 5K at my own pace.  I just need to start making better food choices, chocolate covered digestives is not the best snack option. I've been pretty good about following  the 90 /10 eating rule,  but lately it's been more like the 20 good /70 poor rule.

Onwards and upwards!

I've had my fun ... Now it's time to refocus

After hitting 51 pounds down about a week and a half ago it feels like I've been going to town on food and wine. I had also been studying for an industry certification exam for a few months now and I took the exam a few days ago and passed (what a relief!). This also added to the feeling that I could relax and eat whatever I want. The only thing that has remained consistent is my workouts, but I've been kind of coasting on those too. Good news is I haven't gained any weight, bad news is I haven't lost any either.

I definitely need a fill, not a big one, but one to get me back to the spot where I'm not thinking about food between meals and satisfied with a cup to a cup and a half per meal. I've set a goal to be under 200 pounds by end of August, it's a bit of stretch as I've got 40 to lose to get there but I need the goals to keep me going. 

My action plan:

• Book a fill appointment.
• Get back to planning meals
• Kick my workouts up a notch or two

Thank-you for all the lovely comments re my last post. Hope everyone is doing well, I'm off to catch up on your blogs.