Solids Part II and First Meal Out

Following my last post, I had my first solid meal for dinner Wednesday night. I ate slowly, had a small portion, chewed really well and it was delicious. I had to stop after my first couple of bites and tell myself to relax though, as it felt like I was going to get stuck. I think a big part of it was just me being nervous. Thank-you for your suggestions and encouragement on moving on to solids.

Since then I've had more solid meals and it is helping with the hunger but definitely not keeping me full for 4 hours. After dinner last night I was still hungry, but waited an hour and had 2 pieces of dried apricots. I had to work hard not to eat anything else. I chatted with my parents on the phone and M came home early, both were great distractions and before I knew it, it was too late to eat anything else.  I don't get my first fill for another 2 weeks so it's going to be tough going, but if I could survive the pre-op diet I can deal with this. It will have to be my mantra until fill.

I am meeting up with a good friend of mine that I haven't seen in well over a year for lunch today. I've known her since we were freshmen at university (when I was still relatively thin). Over the years as my weight kept creeping up I would make excuses not to see her and after awhile she stopped trying. She has never had to worry about her weight and I just don't think she can relate to the struggle. One of my goals for this year is to reconnect with friends and I'm doing just that. I still have lots to lose but I don't have the hopeless feeling I  used to have about it,  I finally feel that I'm gaining control. I am going to check out the restaurant menu online and make my choices before we meet, she doesn't know about my band and I'm not ready to tell her.

Happy Saturday!