The fill I got last week is really doing its job and I am now down 70 pounds. I haven't been doing my daily workouts this week as I've been battling a summer cold (those are the worst), but I've been keeping track of my calories. 1,200 or so seems to be the magic number. I'll bump it up a bit once I start working out again but it seems to be doing the trick.
I need exercise and really miss it when I don't. I'm not nearly as congested as I was a few days ago and plan to start running again tomorrow. I've set a goal of running my first 10K in the fall, just need to sign up.
I have been searching through photos to find some of me at my heaviest and so far no luck. I was really good at avoiding the camera. In the age of digital photography I aslo made sure that I deleted any that had me in them. I did save a couple of pairs of trousers from my heaviest and try them on occasionally when I need to remind myself that I am making progress. I would highly recommend it as it seems to make it more real - at least it does for me.
A couple of days ago I found the negative self-talk slipping in - some of the chatter: I should have lost more weight by now, I still have over sixty pounds to lose, why can't I just stick to 800 calories and exercise 2 hours a day and get it done ... and on and on it went. Then the voice of reason chimed in and reminded me that I have lost a significant amount of weight. That I am exercising. That I am living my life, I'm happier, more at peace with myself and all the while I continue to lose. Sometimes we need to be our own cheerleaders.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
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You are doing great! 70 lbs is 70 lbs. Slow or not :)
ReplyDelete70lbs is amazing! Great to hear your last fill is giving you good restriction!
ReplyDelete70 lbs down! AMAZING. Look, that self chatter can go fuck itself. You are working hard, anyone can see that (esp someone who just went through and read most of your blog!!!!- God you have come sooo far!). And as someone who is also working this journey and dealing with all that life throws all I can say is: Great Job. NO, wonderful job.
ReplyDeleteThis is a huge transition, and losing 70 lbs is in and of itself, a huge transition. You're a sweet heart and I know you hold yourself to really high standards, but you deserve and have EARNED the right to trust yourself and your wisdom during this journey. So when those negative voices kick in, as one bandster to another, tell em to 'eff off because you gorgeous lady, are doing a great job. And that's all anyone can do. And you're smart. Strong. And very deserving of happiness.
Don't ever forget it: You're the one doing this, the band is just a tool.
Much love, B
Hey there! Good to see someone else from Slimband...wasn't sure anyone else was out there! ;-) I have a question - is it difficult to book fills? Seems like there is a big procedure for it, and because they gave me a fill at surgery (only 2.5 cc, and I dont' think it's working very well) I'm worried they will put up a fight if I try to get in after 6-8 weeks....
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